Up to even yesterday March 31st 2015, I put so much excitement in this day as a day no one could touch. This is the biggest day of the year for me in my mind, bigger than a birthday, I've had 20+ of those! HAHA. I only have ONE true new year of LIFE! But truth is, it has been the biggest journey to date! Life really still does go on ...But let me tell you one thing about this day a year ago. It has changed my life for a better that I can't explain. And because of that day nothing can take away the glory and victory I feel after the experience. Every day is a blessing, good or bad, and to live everyday believing that- allows you never let anything get in the way of your true happiness.-Shoutout to S.H. for putting that in perspective for me today.
April 1, 2014 (4.1.14) Nashville, TN checking at Vanderbilt Medical Hospital is so vivid in my mind and doesn't seem nearly as long as 365 days ago. It was that, and went by so quickly. But the journey wasn't just that and that moment. I vlog'd a after I had gotten home and was prepping for my transplant on the day before, told a little about my story but didn't go into detail about everything that was going on during those days leading up. Thank you to CMCSS production company that put together this short DOCUMENTARY that can give you great insight on the month and days leading up to 4114 and the blessings beyond.
WARNING - I dissapeared from a lot of social network when I got home from Europe for the surgery because my illness started to take a toll on my body and appearance and I decided to cut all my hair off on a whim because I wanted everything to start brand new- A real life brittney moment!! SO I PROMISE its me lol!! (quick note: Kidney disease causes body swelling and some worst than others, my eyelids started to swell, which is a blessing when there are people and kids who can gain up to 50 pounds or more of water weight)
So Click This Link Titled:DOCUMENTARY
TO ALL MY KIDNEY PATIENTS- YOU CAN MAKE IT
TO ALL OTHERS GOING THROUGH RIGHT NOW- KEEP FAITH
CRAZY SUPER Special Thanks to Erika! She was a blessing and an angel for doing what she did for me on that day.
To everyone who ever supported either of us and our families during these times, we thank you as well!
WE LOVE AND THANK EVERYONE
When the doctors called me home I had no idea what was about to happen, I knew surgery was coming but I didn't realize that my entire life as I'd known it for years would shift COMPLETELY...
1.Its so easy to take advantage or to lose sight of blessings that come easy or the blessings that you've known for so long. I never saw life without basketball..at least seriously! In those moments leading up. It was gone. It was taken from me.. And it caused a serious case of withdrawal.
2.NO BASKETBALL= NO JOB, NO JOB= NO MONEY, NO MONEY= well we all know the list of things that can cause!!! ... BIGGIE LIED!!! lol
3.If you know me you must know I love my family, but I hadn't been home in Clarksville, TN for more than two weeks at a time since I left in 2007, it was like living with mom and dad again. Love them to death but not my first choice although they were amazing to me, great food and every day family-time is the best, but they made it clear they got just as equally tired of their adult daughter being back home after being gone for 7 years. But I am blessed with 2 wonderful human beings as parents, the most incredible people I know!
4.My 4 year on and off again relationship- got to its very worst point. But this is where it ended for the last time. When I needed his love the most, it just fell apart for the very last time!! Breakups are hard, we've all been through them. But in these moments I just wanted him there for me although things had gotten bad on both parts, I wanted the man I loved to love me the same and just be there, he didn't and he wasn't... and in addition to the emotions of surgery approaching it temporarily broke me. -To all my girlfriends who gladly participated in my men bashing rants for months..I love you dearly..you know who you are! lol
--To my girls and guys going through it now: I promise it gets better, and forgiveness is totally tangible from both parties!
EITHER WAY...
1-4= GOD MUST HAVE SOME PLAN FOR ME, FOR ALL OF US, THAT WE DONT ALWAYS UNDERSTAND IN THE MOMENT WE WISHED WE DID
WARNING - I dissapeared from a lot of social network when I got home from Europe for the surgery because my illness started to take a toll on my body and appearance and I decided to cut all my hair off on a whim because I wanted everything to start brand new- A real life brittney moment!! SO I PROMISE its me lol!! (quick note: Kidney disease causes body swelling and some worst than others, my eyelids started to swell, which is a blessing when there are people and kids who can gain up to 50 pounds or more of water weight)
So Click This Link Titled:DOCUMENTARY
TO ALL MY KIDNEY PATIENTS- YOU CAN MAKE IT
TO ALL OTHERS GOING THROUGH RIGHT NOW- KEEP FAITH
CRAZY SUPER Special Thanks to Erika! She was a blessing and an angel for doing what she did for me on that day.
To everyone who ever supported either of us and our families during these times, we thank you as well!
WE LOVE AND THANK EVERYONE
Wow! I had seen bits and pieces of your story but just saw this and watched the documentary. (might have shed a tear but don't tell anyone!). Such an inspiring story glad to see you made your situation into a transformative period for growth. Keep up the good work. Hopefully we will cross paths in LA if you're still out here. take care.
ReplyDeleteI stumbled across this at the right time. Thank you for sharing your story and the documentary. I really needed that at this time in my life. I truly admire your strength and faith. From one JMU alumni to another. #ibleedpurple
ReplyDeleteI stumbled across this at the right time. Thank you for sharing your story and the documentary. I really needed that at this time in my life. I truly admire your strength and faith. From one JMU alumni to another. #ibleedpurple
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